A Lost Way

Darkness surrounds me

Storm of emotions burning my soul

Feeling so hateful to myself

Is there any sunshine to light my way?

I am shattered

Head is clouded with gloomy thoughts

Want to disappear with eyes bloodshot

Aimless running is a better option.

On the way, cold wind touched my face

My mood swings

Images of recent good moments passing through my eyes

Leaving me in feeling of half crying half laughing.

In feeble trembled voice, I shouted -

“I would not cry”,

“I want to smile”,

“I want to live a life full of vibrant colors in it”;

Again a new question emerges out of my mind

“Do I have any reason to smile?”

Mood swings again

And I realized I was in illusion from past few days;

I am succumbed

I am so insignificant to this world

Suffocation giving me thousand deaths every single second

Feathers! Please help me to fly.

No! Says Feathers

Reminding me of the joys their red color had felt recently

Their fragrance holds me tight making my face stoic

Those thoughts left me devastated as they were part of an illusion

I am so helpless now

My mind is blank

Is there anyone to hold my arm?
As I am heading towards A Lost Way !